Monday, January 27, 2014

November 8, 2013 {12 WEEKS}

Today was our first appointment with Dr. Heather Harrison!  I was nervous all day long.  I’ve had SEP’s all week which just added to my stress.  Today I was convinced that I had done something to harm our baby and that when Dr. Harrison used the fetal doppler, we wouldn’t hear a heartbeat at all. 

Tyler was ever so loving and kind, but I turned what was supposed to be a beautiful day of hearing our baby’s heartbeat for the first time into a downer day with my anxiety and stress.  We did have a moment when Dr. Harrison was chasing the baby around (say what?!  It’s already moving like crazy!) and she finally got the heartbeat.  It was incredible.  Tyler and I both looked at each other and smiled.  This was our baby.  It was alive and having a grand old time in my grapefruit-sized uterus already. 

Dr. Harrison let us know the results of my lab tests.  Everything looks good to go, except for the fact that my blood type is A-, which means a Rhogam between 28-32 weeks.  Eek.  Really?!  There’s also some more blood work headed our way and we’re contemplating the flu shot this year.  I just really hate shots.  I really do.  Needles and Jamie are not friends.

Our next appointment is scheduled for December 6th.  We’ll be 16 weeks!  Say what?!  And I’m sure we’ll be talking about finding out the gender sooner or waiting ‘til 20 weeks (after Christmas).

It’s tough being a mom already.  I’m constantly analyzing what I’m doing right or wrong and should I eat that or not?  The nausea comes and goes now.  I’m just so sick of eating every 2 or 3 hours.  Everything is looking less and less appealing the more of it I eat.  Which makes finding new foods I want to eat a pain in the butt.

Work is going okay.  I’ve had to be careful around some of my students as they looooove to give hugs all day long.  I think I’ve insulted some of them by saying that we’re going to save hugs for the end of the day.  I have one student who likes to squeeze me to death for his hug.  I have to remind him everyday to be “not so tight.”  I do get tired more easily and it’s getting harder to stay up with some of my work.  I sleep well about every other night.  I can’t get comfortable in any position these days and it’s frustrating to be so tired, yet lie awake in bed all night. 

And food.  I hate it.  I sat down to eat my dinner tonight and stared at it.  Then I burst into tears because it didn’t sound or smell good and neither did anything else I could think of.  I cried for a good 5 minutes.  And I mean gut-wrenching sobs.  I was so hungry and I had a massive headache so bad, but I didn’t want to eat.  It’s pretty awful. 


But it will be so worth it!

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