We had a bit of a scare today. I woke up to go to the bathroom after T left
for his Sunday meetings and found that I had a bit of brown spotting. I’d heard this was pretty normal, but let’s
be honest, I’ve never done this whole pregnancy thing before and I was a little
concerned. T came home after his
meetings and I told him what had happened and if he’d pray with me. His immediate reaction was, “Where do you
want to pray?” We knelt down in the back
room and he poured out our feelings for both of us. We both want this baby so badly. He prayed for peace and comfort and that the
Lord would know the true desires of our heart to raise a son or daughter in the
gospel.
I felt a calm peace come over us and we headed to
church! T passed out the announcements
and ushered at the door until after the sacrament. I sat on our bench with my parents and
Annette and tried to find peace and comfort in the hymns. Hymn #96, Dearest Children, God is Near You,
was the opening hymn this morning. I got
through the first line and then teared up (own it up to emotions?).
Dearest children, God
is near you,
Watching o’er you day
and night,
And delights to own
and bless you,
If you strive to do
what’s right.
He will bless you, He
will bless you,
If you put your trust
in him.
It was powerful to me today.
God loves me. He’s watching over
me day and night and he’s delighting in blessing me. If I only do what is right, he will bless
me. The last line is the hardest for
me. To trust him. Completely.
Without holding back. I will put
my trust in him. I have to. I cannot bear these trials without him and
his tender mercies and blessings. He is
constantly blessing us and I hope he’ll continue to bless us where this child
is concerned.
Everything is working out so well for this baby. The timing couldn’t be better- we’re due 1
week before school is out. Tender
mercy. I think God knows that I’ll have
a hard time transitioning from teaching to motherhood. I don’t think He wanted to give me much down
time from when school got out to the day the baby would be born. Tender mercy.
The baby is coming after T graduates. Tender mercy.
We live close to my parents and T’s parents are just an hour
away. Tender mercy.
We both have constant jobs where we can save up and get
ready to start a family. Tender mercy.
So many tender mercies.
With this morning sickness and other little bumps in the road, I find
myself continually turning to the Lord for help and guidance. I know that this experience will strengthen
my relationship with my Heavenly Father and I truly want it too. I already see my marriage being strengthened
already as we listen to the counsel to start a family. T is my rock through the days. Without him, I wouldn’t get to work on time
in the mornings. He cuts up an apple and
brings it to me in bed so I can eat something before getting up. He scrapes the frost off of the car windows
and warms up the car. He packs me an
overload of food so I’ll eat something
in my lunchbox. He makes dinner. He does the laundry. He washes the dishes. He goes shopping for apples and oranges late
on Saturday nights so I’ll have something to eat on Sunday and Monday.
He’s my prince. My perfect husband and companion that is ever
so doting and worried. I love him so
much!
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